Merry Christmas (late :bd)

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year sweetheart, ranzter, and all of you guys! Thank you so much for all the love and support and patience you’ve shown me in the last year. You all so perfect to me. Mahal na mahal kita♡ sorry for late hehe ;)

I love you sweetheart♡

Hello sweetheart, kamusta christmas mo? So cute? ;)
Haha, do you know how long it’s taking me to write this? I’ve probably written, read, and deleted my words so many times. It’s taken almost two days to write. But here it goes.

Well my dear sweetheart, I can’t say that we’ve known each other for sooo long, but I can definitely say that I trust you as if I knew you for years. I can count on you whenever I’m sad, angry, or in need of somebody to talk. Hmmm what can I say about you and us? When we first met in my concert, I didn’t think much of it.
I thought y'all would walk away after learning about my fucked-up past. I was almost sure it wouldn’t work out. I never knew, never thought it would be like this, me needing y'all so much. I never thought y'all would be the first thing I thought about in the morning hehe ;;) The last thing I thought about before I went to bed. It took a very short time for me to fall for you all. It scared me. It terrified me. I never thought that I would ever leave myself vulnerable to someone, to give them such power over me. I never thought it was possible. Nonetheless, I did. Y'all gave me everything. I gave in to loving you all. It’s impossible to articulate how much I love you. It’s impossible to even touch on the subject. I love you sweetheart with every inhale, exhale, and step that I take. Even though everyone around me tried to talk me out of loving you all, I know I couldn’t. I know that they didn’t understand that this is one in a million. I know they’ve never felt what we do. Just because we’re so young doesn’t mean we are incapable of being in love. This, US, we are living, breathing, loving, examples. I don’t care what people
may think about us, because I know what I feel. And i know this is real. And whatever happens in the end; I will forever love you my sweetheart. No matter what. I will forever love you the same way I do now. I’m in love with you, and for once, I’m happy. So, thank you. Thank you for loving me and making me feel gwapo every day. Thank you for listening to me. You mean so much to me. You are understanding when I make no sense, forgiving when I make mistakes, and patient when I don’t deserve it. You all always there to steady me when I fear that I’m falling. I’m a tough person to be with but you seem to be able to handle me and that’s amazing to me because not a lot of people can. You can’t begin to comprehend how grateful I am for that. I just want you to know that no matter how anybody else sees you, to me you are precious and importantand worth so, so much. I love love love love love you sweetheart! ;)

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I want to text you.
But I don't wanna bug you.
But I don't wanna show you I care.
But I don't wanna annoy you.
"Should I text her?" That’s what I ask myself when I type her name one my screen. "Is she doing the same?" That’s what I ask myself when I catch myself thinking about her all day. "Does she wants to talk to me?" That’s what I ask myself when I’m dying to talk to her. “Does she really love me?” And well that’s what I ask myself when I catch myself crying my eyes out because I love her with every bit of me .

Yaks -_-

Happy Birthday hehe

Is so important to everyone who knows you and who loves the amazing person you are. On your
birthday and always, you’re wished everything wonderful!
Happy Birthday Ully! Hope you are wearing your best birthday smile all day long! I am so glad.
Another year has passed and as you celebrate your birthday this year and turn a year older. May you
have all that you wish for come true. Have a happy birthday!
May you always be happy, healthy and wealthy. I wish you a great year and glorious life ahead.You
have always made us (chicser) proud.Happy Birthday! Enjoy your day.
Wishing you a very Happy Birthday. Longlast with Mrs. C ;;) Hmm don't make me jealous bcs of your relationship hehehe but sometimes I did anyway hehe okayy..
Wishing you special happiness, wonderful memories and all the very best on your birthday and for every
single day of your life. On your birthday I wish you as many years as there are stars in the sky. Happy 21st birthday ULLY! @chicserullyses - Ranz Kyle

No Title hehe

Please support me even you’re not talking. I need you like I used to be. You're the only girl I see

Huh

I wish I could stop loving you. I wish I could forget you. I wish I didn’t care so much about you.
Sometimes I wish I’d never met you.
But then I remember all the little things about you, all the things you did for me, all the time we’ve spent together, and I realize why I fell in
love with…

Fuck Believe

Huh I just wanna tell you as usuall -_-

I hate when people didn't believe me when I've told the truth -_-
Even my girl, I mean my ex hoho
Oh c'mon babe -_-
I'm not JESUS
It doesn't matter if you don't believe me haha :*
I'm only HUMAN and I'm is who I am :* XOXO

I Miss You

What should I do right now? I'm really miss you :( I can't control myself for stop missing you. Everything that I do its like reminds me of you. When I open my phone that's time when I see you face through there. When I see the sky, the stars its like write your name.
I really want you to back but yea .. I don't know what should I do. should I tell you? Should I call you? Should I text you? I just wanna stay here and hope that everything gonna be okay. I hope you happy there without me, I hope you can smile like you used to be with me, I hope you can manage your time well for your ownself. Everything that I do for you, it just for your best and your life. I don't wanna hear that you broke there like me, I don't wanna hear that you're depressed like me right now and don't ask anyone how's my feeling right now. Remember, as long as you happy there, I would happy here too. Exactly you know what would I replied that question.
Hmm I just wanna say, 'hey there! I miss you so much' Its okay if you don't miss me back, I know you're happy with your life right now 'cause I left you. I hope thats the reality. I love you and I always do.

Where I am today

You left me. Which means you don’t want to be here. So why do I continually wish for you to come back? I love you , I really do. But I need to let go of the things I love and start a new. Like the saying goes, If you come back you were always mine. But now I’m seeing that you never truly were. You try to hurt me everyday with your words and your acts. This just shows you’re weak and you are trying to knock me down so you’ll gain dominance. The truth is, I’m controlling the words from now on. These stories and poems may be written about you and I. But I wrote them. I control the story now. I’m turning the page and starting a new chapter. One where you aren’t the main character, but the lesson learned in time. I love you and I always do.

Mahal Kita

Mahal kita kasi maganda ka. Mahal kita kasi cute ka. Mahal kita kasi lagi mo akong pinapatawa. Mahal kita kasi kahit korny ako, tumatawa ka padin. Mahal kita kasi lagi mo kong nilalambing. Mahal kita kasi lagi mo akong sinasabihan ng gwapo :p . Mahal kita kasi lagi mo akong binubusog. Mahal kita kasi hindi ka nawawalan ng time sakin. Mahal kita kasi pinagmamalaki mo ako. Mahal kita kasi mahal mo din ako. Mahal kita kasi kahit hindi ako kasing gwapo, kasing sexy at kasing talino ng iba, ako padin yung pinili mo. Mahal kita kasi hindi mo ako iniiwan hehehe

Mad at MySelf

I MAD AT MY SELF, NOT YOU.
I'm mad for always being nice. I'm mad for apologizing for things I didn't do. I'm mad for getting attatched. I'm mad for thinking about you but most of all, but most of all I'm mad for not hating you when I should. I want to say ‘screw you’ but I know you don’t mean to hurt me. You don’t understand. You’re naive and ignorant. Mostly that’s fine. I’m glad you don’t know what this is like. Sometimes it’s just hard to not have a loved one who is present, who listens, who asks questions and tries to understand. Sometimes I just need someone to be there for me like I have tried to be there for you on so many late nights, early mornings, and random panicked moments. I guess you’re not that person. That’s okay. I still love you. I’ll cool down in time. I'll try.

Angry

Have you ever getting angry in a sad feeling because you're? You! Tonight, I do. So many people makes me angry today. And its even bad when my moodbstr is not being there for me. Because she's too busy to care about me. I just walking a day alone. I missed her. But I can't do anything. Nevermind. I'm fine. But when she's not around why I can't handle my emotional. I said a bad words for million times. She just call me, and we talk for a while. To be honest I wanna tell her that I really angry about a few of people in a day. But from her words, she act like she don't wanna hear anything for me. I know that shit! Then I just hurt my hand because I wanna handle my emotional. I don't want to makes she listen a bad words for me and the only thing I can do is hurting myself to handle my emotional. I hate the bloods of my hand. My only relief is to sleep. When I’m sleeping, I’m not sad, I’m not angry, I’m not lonely, I’m nothing. I just want someone who wanna listen my pain rn. But I know I can't. Good night. Have a sweet dream :)

9

Sorry, for the doubts, the fights, the things I did that you didn’t like. For being too clingy, for being so jealous about many things, and for being not so perfect boyfriend. Thank you, for the patience, the care, the time, the love. For understanding my complicated attitude, for being the sweetest girlfriend I could ever had, and for giving me so much happiness. :) I love you. I love you no matter what. :) Even though you’re not perfect, I love your imperfections. All of it. Even if there’s a million of reasons to leave you, I’ll always find one reason to stay. :) You’re my everything and words are not enough to explain how much you mean to me. I’ll never give up on you, as long as we’re together.
You’re my forever and a day. Love you My 9.

Napapagod Na ako

I just kinda tired, you know?
I want stop trying and not care for a few days. I'm a little tired of feeling like a failure. Tired of being not good enough. Tired of trying. Tired of getting put down. Tired of being unconfident. Tired of insecurities. Tired of being tired. Just tired. That's all.
But, okay I wanna give you words

"You don't realize how much you care about someone 'till they don't care about you"

Hahaha there's time when you should understand. But remember, I always there for you even you don't need me.

You and I

I figured it out
I figured it out from black and white
Seconds and hours
Maybe they had to take some time
I know how it goes
I know how it goes from wrong and right
Silence and sound
Did they ever hold each other tight
Like us
Did they ever fight
Like us
You and I
We don't wanna be like them
We can make it till the end
Nothing can come between
You and I
Not even the Gods above can
Separate the two of us
No nothing can come between
You and I
Oh, you and I
I figured it out
Saw the mistakes of up and down
Meet in the middle
There's always room for common ground
I see what it's like
I see what it's like for day and night
Never together
Cause they see things in a different light
Like us
They never tried
Like us
You and I
We don't wanna be like them
We can make it till the end
Nothing can come between
You and I
Not even the Gods above can
Separate the two of us
'Cause You and I
We don't wanna be like them
We can make it till the end
Nothing can come between
You and I
Not even the Gods above can
Separate the two of us
No nothing can come between
You and I
Oh, you and I
Ooooh You and I
We could make it if we try
Oh, you and I
YOU AND I

Concert

I just forgot what time is that but that time I was concert in one of city sa philippines. Nothing special. But I'm happy for made smile on all of my sweetheart face. FYI, my fans called sweetheart. The concert was like we used to be but when the concert was finished, I saw one of my sweetheart cried. She cried very hard. Then, I walk close over her. With the security near her. And I asked her what happened. And she told me that the security don't let her to come visit me in the room. I guess she's 10. Then I asked her again, why did she wanna visit our room 'till she's cried very hard. I was sad when I hear her answer. She said "Hello ranz, I just wanna take a photo with you. My sister was sick. Lymphoma. She's hospitalize right now. And she's can't wake up. She's really love you. She has waiting for a long time for you to come to our city one day and met and take a photo with her but now, when you was here she's can't met you. She said she will die fastly then she want me to meet you in your concert and take a photo with you for her. Ranz, will you?' I don't know what I felt that time. I just got paralyzed. My heart was cried. I accept that shit. We took a photo. And I gave her sister a little latter and I wrote that latter by myself.

"Hello sweetheart! I'm glad to met your cute sister. I hope one day we can meet :) Get well really soon and keep smile. love you my sweetheart"
                     With love - Ranz Kyle

I Miss You

This morning, I woke up at 10. Then. I opened my phone and read her text. She said she's helping her mother and will text me latter. 2 hours passed. Dunno why, I just really miss her. Then I playing One Direction song 'you and I' gahhhhh suddedly I getting sad. And remembering her. Nllungkot ako :( anng dpt ko sbhin? Hmm .. well. Whenever you are, I miss you. When I close my eyes, there's only you who I can see. I miss our talks, I miss our laughs, I miss us spending time together, but in the end I only miss you. I can only reread our chat and smile like an idiot. Lagi kang mag-ingat. Miss na miss kita. I love you.

Thank You sweetheart

I just wanted to thank you. Thank you for being everything and more than I have ever imagined you to be. Thank you for being here for me since day one and not giving up on me in the beginning. Thank you for bringing pure bliss into my life, and making me the happiest person alive. Thank you, for everything and all that you do for me. I appreciate you in every single way possible. You are the only person that I will ever want and these feelings that I have for you are beyond what I even think they are. You are the best girlfriend I’ve had and will ever have. Even me saying that you are absolutely perfect, just flawless, and completely amazing is a complete and utter understatement. I am so happy with you, so extremely happy. I can’t remember a time where I was this happy - Oh. Right, I’ve never been this happy before. Nobody will ever replace you, ever. There is nobody quite like you and I am so grateful that I was blessed with such an amazing person in my life. You are my better half, my best friend, and the absolute love of my life. You are the epitome of perfection, I mean it. You are so beautiful in so many ways -outside and most importantly inside. The way you make me feel is completely indescribable. You make me feel like I actually mean something, like I’m doing something right. Well I must be doing something right obviously if I have someone as great as you in my life. You put up with my bullshit mood swings and my constant complaining and for that, I am so completely blessed. So extremely blessed. These past seven months that I’ve spent with you, talking + getting to know you has made me feel so alive. I’ve never wanted to know so much about a person before until I met you. You know all of my secrets, my horrible past, and what is in store for the future and you love me despite all of the bad. You are my light in the darkness. You are my rock. You are my one and only and I still ask myself how did I get so fucking lucky to be graced with such an amazing girlfriend + perfect bestfriend? They say the greatest things come unexpected, and I definitely didn’t expect you to become my whole entire world. I love
you with every aching bone in my body and I would absolutely do everything and anything for you. I will never let you fall, ever. You will always have me ‘till death and even beyond that. It’s you and me, ‘till forever. I believe that we were put on this earth for one purpose, and that was for us to fall madly in love with each other. I’m never letting you go, not now, not ever. You hold that place in my heart that no one will ever have, NO ONE. No matter what happens, I will always love and be in love with you. I believe that you can only fall in love once, and I’ve never been so sure that this time is the real deal. I love you sweetheart, more than you and I could ever imagine

Good night :)

It’s crazy how my love for you is growing each day, and I am not kidding when I say that you never failed to make me love you more and more hehe♥ I understand that this whole Long Distance Relationship is never easy, and that people often say it's a waste of time. But if you're willing to do it, we can prove to this world that our relationship is different. We can show the world that our relationship is something special ♥ I honestly don't know how our relationship will end up, but hey, with the promises we made to each other, we should be perfect as long as we don't break them. I love you♥

Once Again

Sorry k ong hindi tayo umabot sa forever na pinangako natin sa isa’t isa . Sorry don sa mga panahong nasaktan kita , sorry don sa mga binitiwan kong nakakasakit na salita . Sorry kong hindi tayo para sa isat isa. Maiintindihan mo naman siguro nahihirapan na ako di ba? Hindi lahat nang bagay sa iyo kaya kong in intindihin . Hindi lahat nang
pagkukulang mo kaya kong punuin . May damdamin din naman ako , nasasaktan din ako at Syempre mas kailangan ko parin naman yong taong kaya akong mahalin, intindihin, alagaan at yong taong hindi ako kayang baliwalain ..
Siguro nga hindi tayo ang nakalaan para sa isa’t isa , nagkamali lang tayo non kasi masyado tayo nagmadali sa mga bagay gaya
nang pagmamahal pero ganun paman . naging masaya ako sa Piling mo , minahal parin naman natin ang isa’t isa . Salamat parin don sa mga panahon pinakilig , pinasaya at nagawa mong kalimotan ko yong
minsang nasaktan rin pala ako sa nakaraan ko bago ikaw. Salamat sa mga panahon nakasama kita. naging masaya din naman kasi ako sa piling mo. hindi ko na isusumbat yong mga Pagkukulang mo kasi lahat naman yon nagbunga nang gwapo. narealize ko at maaring ikaw din na Hindi pa tayo sa isa’t isa. Sana mahalin ka rin nang taong mamahalin mo, Sana magawa mo sa kanya yong mga bagay na hindi mo nagawa sakin. Sana rin pagkatiwalaan mo siyang hawakan ang puso mo. Magiingat ka rin sana sa pagmamahal ulit nang ibang tao, magiging masaya na ako makita ka lang na masaya! Wag mo sanang
tuluyan sirhan ang puso mo, kailangan mo parin naman maging masaya kahit pa sa piling nang ibang tao :)

Dear My Last ex-girlfriend

I never knew how it felt to be loved, until I felt your hand wrapped around my throat at 3AM. In the middle of the night, with 90
missed calls, saying “baby please, I need you.”
I never knew what it was like to not be able to breathe from words, until I felt my heart pound through my body looking for any last oxygen molecule to consume. I watched the
subway trains pass for three hours that night, before riding a bus back to you. I loved you more than you could know. You were always the one I loved, our promise. It was us. How could something so beautiful turn tragic over night? I felt less yours after that. He stole a piece of me from you. You promised me you’d always be there, but you lied. Dear ex-girlfriend, I swear I didn’t love you hard enough but oh god I could’ve. I spent months waiting for you, some days it was like you were still beside me. I worried for you. I’d sometimes cry at night walking home alone. I don’t watch a single sunset without thoughts of you overwhelming my brain, waves at the beach and new years eve nights aren’t the same anymore. Did you forget everything I didn’t?
I held on for too long that parts of me were starting to slip away, your face was in every mirror, every time I closed my eyes. You were haunting my nightmares. I still remember the exact hue of your eyes and the constellation of freckles on your face.
Dear ex girlfriend, we hurt each other and love should never be like that but when you stab a knife in someone’s back that many times and they still come back, aren’t you
the lucky one? I don’t make promises anymore, I forgot how
to say I love you and the word forever is a little confusing to me.
I will never look at someone the same way again hahahaha
and im always and forever thankful for that. and i bet you have no idea how much I’ve changed since you left. im stronger now, somehow the pain helps me to grow, to be a better person. forgiveness set me free, yes, whatever the pain you’ve caused, i forgive you. no bitterness now, just acceptance.
4 months has passed between us, and sometimes i wonder..do you still think of me? of how we used to be? of our memories? i hope that when you look back, you’ll smile, and no…don’t feel bad about me, or the pain you have caused. i want you to be happy, i only wish all the good thing in you, and i hope that all of those future plan you have before, please make them all come true.
believe in yourself, the way i believe in you… i know you can do it. and please don’t ever, ever, think that you’re not good enough, because for me, until now..you are
worth it, even all the pain. everything about you is wonderful, and i feel happy knowing that i’ve given a chance to know someone
like you. you’re special you know.
and now, all i have is your memories, and day after day…they fade. i miss you..i miss talking to you...
But, for my girl. Don't be jealous. My heart still be you. I just miss my memories. Not that person. My heart just for you. Only you. I love you

Me this Morning

Last night .. My dad asked me to accompany him to buy a new shoes. and I accompany him. When I on the way to the mall, I still text my girl. We talked like we used to 'till I arrived at that mall and my dad told me that he want me to accompany him not ignore him. You know what I mean? I just texting with her then my dad getting mad to me and he want me to put my phone. I can do anything. Then I don't opened my phone for 1 hour. Then I ask my dad to got home but he said he wanna buy some snack. Then I'm waiting again. My heart beated so fast. To be honest I don't wanna make my girl waiting for me for a long time. 2 hours passed. My dad don't wanna drive the car. Finally, I do. I drove my car as fast as I can. You know I don't wanna make her waiting and waiting again. I know that's hurt. Then, when I arrived at home. I open my phone. And I saw her said 'good night' uh.. I got a bit disappointed. Then I was really guilty for make her waiting 2 hours for me. The night I can't sleep. I thoght of her. I'm very afraid if she getting mad. And then I sent a sweet text for her. I hope when she's wake up and take her phone, she's smile without reason. After I give it to her. I slept 'cause I felt really sleepy. She's wake up early... And she said that she's smile when she readed my text. And when I wake up and reads her text. I smiled like an idiot.

Being Ignored

I wanna tell you how I feel right now. I have a hard time to explain what I really feel. But I try to explain that shit in english.
I hate people who doesn't care and ignore me. 'Cause I never ignore or don't care 'bout 'em. And absolutely, I really hate being ignored by someone I pay the most attention to. You know. Thats really hurt me. But now, I should accept the reality that I'm not important enough for someone who she's really important to me. And I can't ask her for that shit. I just can motionless and hoping that one day she will. 3 months past I've waiting for her attention. Waiting for her to make me special in her life. Waiting for she says that I'm the one who she'll never let go. The one who she's really love. The one who she's proud to have. But .. yea, waiting just waiting. I think that isn't her fault to ignore me or anything. But that's my fault 'cause I think that she would. But the fact she wouldn't.
Last week I gave her my own.song. And I make the song soon as fast as I can. And I wanna give it to her, I wanna show her that she's really special to me. But all of my fight doesn't good enough for her. She's ignore me and my own song. Nevermind I'm okay. I know that every boy can give it to her even it more than I do. But if she wanna know, I do it by myself, I do it by my heart. I'm not sad. But I wanna say 'thank you' for her. Just because she ignore me, she has a great time to teach me how to life without her in my life. I don't hate her. I hate my self. Why I love her. I don't know how I feel right now. I rather hear "I DON'T LOVE YOU" than being ignored. You know .. thats too hurt. Really hurt. I hope that someday you don't feels what I feel right now. 'Cause thats too hurt. Its not just can broke his heart but his life too. 'Cause he just give up his life to you and see? what the hell you treated him. I just share what I really feel. Sorry if you hurt with all of my words. Sorry. I love you. I'll never let you go.