Being Ignored

I wanna tell you how I feel right now. I have a hard time to explain what I really feel. But I try to explain that shit in english.
I hate people who doesn't care and ignore me. 'Cause I never ignore or don't care 'bout 'em. And absolutely, I really hate being ignored by someone I pay the most attention to. You know. Thats really hurt me. But now, I should accept the reality that I'm not important enough for someone who she's really important to me. And I can't ask her for that shit. I just can motionless and hoping that one day she will. 3 months past I've waiting for her attention. Waiting for her to make me special in her life. Waiting for she says that I'm the one who she'll never let go. The one who she's really love. The one who she's proud to have. But .. yea, waiting just waiting. I think that isn't her fault to ignore me or anything. But that's my fault 'cause I think that she would. But the fact she wouldn't.
Last week I gave her my own.song. And I make the song soon as fast as I can. And I wanna give it to her, I wanna show her that she's really special to me. But all of my fight doesn't good enough for her. She's ignore me and my own song. Nevermind I'm okay. I know that every boy can give it to her even it more than I do. But if she wanna know, I do it by myself, I do it by my heart. I'm not sad. But I wanna say 'thank you' for her. Just because she ignore me, she has a great time to teach me how to life without her in my life. I don't hate her. I hate my self. Why I love her. I don't know how I feel right now. I rather hear "I DON'T LOVE YOU" than being ignored. You know .. thats too hurt. Really hurt. I hope that someday you don't feels what I feel right now. 'Cause thats too hurt. Its not just can broke his heart but his life too. 'Cause he just give up his life to you and see? what the hell you treated him. I just share what I really feel. Sorry if you hurt with all of my words. Sorry. I love you. I'll never let you go.